I think I thrive on procrastination, it's when I think most about things that really matter to me...just in general, I do procrastinate a lot. I mean, when I procrastinate, I usually either cook/bake/clean/domestic-crap, read the news, shop online, and make journal entries like this one (just to get things out of my head). At least I don't play video games ALL DAY!!!...however, I spend hours on youtube...it's cruelly addictive.


I'm making a crochet quilt for my mom for Christmas. I started it during summer and stashed it away once school came, but I really want to finish it...but I SHOULD be painting right now...I want to paint, I just kind of want to make a quilt more tonight...I want to make a quilt for my dad and brother too, but that will have to wait till next year, I've already planned so much detail for this one, I'm so excited, it's going to be a quilt that tells a story, or has some sort of awesome illustration (ahem, out of yarn) on it.


School is great, tough and stressful, but that's what it's supposed to be. School makes me happy most of the time, and miserable when I'm stressed.


I'm frustrated that I'm good at things I don't need to be good at, and the things I want to be good at, I suck at. I went to the driving range during the summer and hit a few buckets of balls, and I was surprised at how tight my golf swing still is...after maybe 6 or 7 bad shots, all the good ones came back so fast and I was just churning them out like butter...but frankly, golf sucks, and there's not much use of it unless you're in the business where the company's leisure is golf! I'm still pretty decent with my flute (I'm sad my G-flat is broken), and I'm really confident that I would still be decent at throwing pots. I guess I just feel less than average lately, especially since all my classmates kick ass at what they do.


Anyway, I need to post some things up...seriously...I need to do some art that isn't just school related. That would really boost my confidence.